Michelle Anne.

sisters

ayotiffany:

< vent > its been bugging me for all this time already when you have that ONE sister that you WISH you could tell everything to. That you think its going to be like one of those movies where the sisters are actually best friends and they do everything together. Sometimes I WISH I had that sister. I do have a sister. ONE sister. She goes to college, and I anticipate everyweekend she visits home. Like the little sister I am I would always look out for her and always make sure that she doesn’t get into bad situations. But NOW, I feel like I have to share her.. Most of the time it doesn’t feel like sharing. I feel like I’m suddenly being replaced by her boyfriend’s little sister… She even told me that she is “the little sister that she’s always wanted…” </3 During the weekdays she would hang out with her boyfriend and her. During the weekends while she’s in the same house as me she’s always webcamming with them. Sometimes I don’t understand how much her boyfriend’s little sister received more attention in half a year than I have our entire LIFE together. (I’ve lost a sister.. At least I have a brother) < /vent >

REALLY?! I heard about your tweets too. But I don’t have a twitter, so I don’t really give a fuck what you post. Honestly, I just let it go. But really. You want a sister who you can tell everything to and what not, but what am I?! Like seriously. You NEVER tried to talk to me. I ALWAYS tried to get through to you. ALWAYS. And don’t you ever tell me that I haven’t. Cause I HAVE. I ask you what’s wrong. I ask you why you’re crying. Things like that. But whenever I’m crying or what not, you don’t give a shit. I do so much for you tooo. I bring your boyfriend home when he doesn’t have a ride. I try surprising you with him or even Nikki. I was kidding when I said Nikki was the little sister that I always wanted. Obviously I already have a little sister and that is YOU. How many times do I have to tell you that to get it through your head. This is so stupid. Honestly, stop acting like I don’t care. I’VE ALWAYS CARED. You just don’t the time to see that. You go right on with your assumptions. Assuming I’m spending all this time with Nikki. For your information, I see you more often than I see her. You and Nikki were FRIENDS. But now you ignore her just like how you ignore me. I obviously give a shit about you. But you like to think otherwise. And it pisses me off how you always compare our relationship to mine with Nikki. YOU ARE MY SISTER, BY BLOOOD. I’ve known you my WHOLE life. Shouldn’t that mean something a little bit more?! Seriously Tiffany. You take everything and make it so much more dramatic than it should be. You can talk to me, but you choose to tweet and tumblr about me instead. You can confide and everything in me. But YOU choose not to. It’s YOU that puts all this on yourself. You never take the opportunity to talk to me even when I’m right in front of you trying to talk to you. And do you think I choose not to come home so that I’d have to be away from you?! NO. Hell no. Sometimes I don’t come home on the weekends cause I have midterms or finals. I have to study too, and I just can’t do it at home. How does mom understand that and not you? Out of all people, you should be able to understand that the most. When ever I have to go out of my way for you, I DO. I always do. I support you. I go to all your school events and everything. Does AJ go to all your events? NO. Does he drive you places anymore besides school? NO. I do. I do all that for you. Yet you give me NO CREDIT whatsoever. You hate me. You despise me. You want me gone forever. You don’t want me as your sister anymore. You disown me. You wish I would die. I’ve heard it all from you. YET not once have I ever said anything like that you. Cause I don’t mean it if I ever did. I hate it when you say whatever or start cussing for no reason. Its absolutely unnecessary. Don’t act like I don’t try talking to you. CAUSE I DO. And yet you don’t even bother to hold up a conversation with me. I’ve always looked after you. ALWAYS. Yet you don’t ever give a shit. EVER. Never once. You never said that you love me. You’ve never said thank you. Or anything! And I’m tired of caring when it doesn’t even seem like you do the same! I’m not asking for anything in return. I just want you to know that I’ve always been here and I always will be. You don’t give me enough credit on being your sister. Is it an apology that you want from me? Well then fine. I’m sorry for being such a horrible sister to you. I’m sorry for letting you down or making it seem like I wasn’t here for you. I’m sorry if you got jealous of Nikki. I’m sorry for saying the things I said. I’m sorry for not being there all the time. I’m sorry for everything. You know, I’d talk to you in person, but I’ve already tried that before. I know you won’t talk, and I don’t blame you. Just stop with all the tweets and tumblr posts! If you want to say something about me, say it to my face. I’m sure you wouldn’t like it if I started talking shit behind your back. I never have and I’m not planning on starting either. Things need to change, Tiff. So its either you make sure they do, or you can leave it to how it’s always been. I’ve done everything I can do. It’s really up to you now. I swear, you act as if the things you say don’t hurt me. THEY DO. They really do. If that’s what you wanted, well hope you’re happy now. Glad to know that you’re happy about having a brother and not giving a shit about your only sister. Makes me feel so much better. I don’t care what you say, but you’re my sister and I love you. No matter what you say, I’ve always loved you and I always will. No matter how many times you put me down, I know that you’re my sister and I love you. Hope you know that.